A Dance with Doubt

Doubt…. Am I pretty, or is that just a dream? Am I appealing, or is it just a hopeful gleam? Do I look sexy enough to catch a stranger’s eye? These thoughts plague my mind, as the days go by.

Did that guy glance at me, or is it in my head? Is he drawn to me, or to the wheels I tread? Holy crap, am I really worth his stare? Or is he just curious about the chair?

No, no, no—I’m not pretty enough for his gaze, I tell myself this, through a mental haze. Should I ignore him until he fades away? Or am I missing a chance by keeping love at bay?

What if I’m letting go of something rare, Just because I’m frightened, tangled in despair? Am I afraid of disappointment’s sting? Or is it my own reflection that I fear to bring?

Am I scared that I don’t love myself enough? And that without self-love, I’ll never find love’s touch? Will I ever embrace this body of mine? Will I ever see the beauty in what I once did decline?

And now I’m scared, scared that love won’t find its way, Scared that in my fear, I’ll keep it at bay. Do I crave love? Oh, yes, with all my heart, I long for the day when love can start.

I want to be held, to feel tender care, To let go of fear and breathe love’s air. But how do I rid myself of these doubts and lies? How do I embrace myself, and let love arise?

What if I get hurt, if love leads me astray? Is my heart ready for what love has to say? Is it safe to just be me, unguarded and free? To offer my heart and my body, to let love see?

Can I let go, and let love take the lead? Can I trust in the journey, and follow love’s creed? Can I be brave, and take that step? Can I believe in love, and the secrets it’s kept?

Because I’ve met a man, a man so true, A man who gives me goosebumps, out of the blue. A man who makes me smile, who listens and stays, A man unafraid to leap, unafraid of love’s maze.

But am I ready, to let love in? To open my heart, and let the journey begin? Can I be brave, let go of the past? Can I let love bloom, let it last?

What if I get hurt, will I still stand tall? Is it worth the risk, to give love my all? Is my heart prepared, is it ready to mend? If love goes wrong, will it find its way again?

Is it safe to be me, to show all I am? To let my heart sing, to not give a damn? To guard my heart, but not too tight, To let love in, to feel its light?

Will I ever find the courage to say, That I am worthy of love, in every way? Can I let love in, without fear or shame? Can I trust in love, and its endless flame?

So here I stand, on the edge of love’s sea, Wondering if I can just let it be. To love and be loved, without fear of the fall, To trust in love, to give it my all.

What if I get hurt? What if I cry? But what if I don’t? What if I fly? Is my heart ready, is it strong enough? To face the unknown, to embrace love’s bluff?

Can I let love lead, let it show me the way? Can I be brave, can I let go today? For love is a journey, a path to be tread, And I’ll take the first step, with hope in my head.